Surrender.. No wait I got this... right*sigh* Sur.ren..der.

Good afternoon you deliciously fragent women! How was your three day weekend? Yes, that is infereing that you had a three day weekend but I trust the rest of the world does not celebrate President's day. It would be similiar to me celebrating French Independance day...hmm I wonder if my boss would give me that off? Digressing... right onward.

Today's blog is about that wonderfully tantalizing word, Surrender.

What the hell does that mean anyway? *checks online dictionary*

to yield to(something) to the possession or power of another;

Yeah that sounds mightily intriguing, even less than appealing and yet here I am inviting myself to do just that in yoga. The question came in a variation of Frog's Pose. On the mat, sideways, the knees are drawn towards the chest as the forearms are placed on a block. My feet are facing outward, as if I am a frog. Tilt the sacrum in and voila! You have a very uncomfortable postion that invites many sexual ideas into the mind. Fortunately for me while I am on the mat those thoughts disappear.

The point of the pose, at least this form of the variation, was to feel the inner spiral of the inner thighs. Feel the abductors stretch and of course to surrender.

This is also the intention of the class surrender the ego to the infinite. You know its sounds pretty when you put it like that. My instructor, Kathy Tousek, is a fabolous woman for pushing you without hurt or pain. I love the gentle style of anusara yoga and her offerings of deeper poses. Quite the challenge.

In the varied frog pose she said it, again, surrender to the pose. Then the next statement was what caused me to pause. "Surrender without the pain." Ironically I didn't know how to separate the two. So I asked, "What is the difference in surrending and surrendering to the pain?" For a moment the whole class stayed silent as if contemplating the question. It was then Kathy remarked a profound statement. "That is exactly what each of us have to discover for ourselves.

Most of my life I have ran away from pain, when you think about it the body's natural reaction is to pull from any injury. Stub your toe, you yank back your foot. Get a crick in the neck automatically you arch your head the opposite way. So there is this movement away from pain. Recently I have entertained the idea of walking through the emotions. Buddhism calls it transmutation, where the emotion wells up and the pupil embraces it, feels it, allows it and then steps through it. This process is necessary to attain enlightenment and no attachments.

I am not sure about any other Lesbian but isn't that the crux of the problem in our relationships? Attachments? Right, you know the joke, the uhaul rental place is also known as the lesbian dating service... Sometimes the jokes are painful but that is usually because I see myself in them.
*sigh* <----------has done the codependent, uhaul relationship.

So it comes to this, can I surrender to the infinite, the divine to the spirit of the universe without attachment to the physical, the pain or the desire?

That my friends may take a long time to answer, unless of course it doesn't after all I could be distracted by something shiny.

until the next revelation...

Love and Light
Rochelle

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